Caffeine Doesn't Always Cut It

Today was one of those weird days. A day when I didn't wake up with a headache and although I wasn't full of energy I wasn't feeling like I got ran over by that truck.  Well, I've been there before and it was a Monday so I still took my caffeine drink and it just didn't cut it today.

My mom said her biorhythms were down when she had days like this.  I'm not sure what the deal was (and I certainly don't know what a biorhythm is!) but the simple fact was that I felt less than sufficient throughout the day and that just made everything hard.  Full of doubt, lack of self-esteem, a little bit of anger and blaming others, just not good feelings.  Had I read my scriptures that morning? Nope.  But I had prayed and paused for a moment to search my heart for communications.  They didn't come at that time, nor have they really yet in these early morning moments when I've been pausing just for a couple moments.  Really trying to bring myself closer to the Lord but perhaps not trying hard enough or spending enough time searching the Lord's word in the morning.

It's not a huge surprise that caffeine wasn't enough today but is a bit of a bummer.  There are days when that caffeine is the perfect thing and makes a WoRLd of difference.  Last Tuesday was definitely that way.  So the reality is that I know that God can make me stronger, smarter, better in all ways, and more efficient at my job.  So I'm going to read my scriptures more and pray a little more until he fills me with what I need.  I'll keep you posted.